It happens right, or it has happened? Or maybe you’re not even aware of it! How did this make you feel? I recall many times growing up I would say these things or more to myself, the feeling of dread, the lack of self-esteem, the lack of confidence. Some of it was due to external factors out of my control, some, just being told things in the community or at school, it all had an impact, it all affected the self-talk dialogue. Ultimately, I was the loser here but looking back, maybe also others around me. They didn’t get the best of me; they didn’t get the opportunity to see what I was capable of at that time, the reason being, the negative inner self-talk.
Are you sure? What if it doesn’t work out? Have you thought about it? I don’t think you should? What about money? What about your job? Your [insert age]! Don’t do it! I’s too far! What about me / us [insert a loved one’s name] Have you heard any of this before? Highly likely when…
Hard to argue with this right? A year on, and not much I would change or add. Lessons have been learnt. Hearts have been broken. Jobs have been gained. Jobs have been walked away from. Dreams have been made. As always, life is full of uncertainty, varying from the good, the bad, the ugly, the incredible, the beautiful, the nasty, the love…you get my point. At any one point, your life can be turned upside down, inside out, for the good or, the bad. I wouldn’t wish the bad upon anybody but for me, without the bad, the good wouldn’t have much value. I’m truly grateful for the bad that’s occurred in life. Would I have chosen it before I knew it would happen? Hell no. of course not. Who would? Knowing however the consequences of who I would become, would I have chosen it…i
I’m in a bubble. Not wanting to leave. A bubble full of love, joy, friendship, certainty, uncertainty, goodbyes, hello’s, growth and confusion. Having spent around 18 days in Koh Tao, I was reluctant to leave. I had the most incredible time there, met some unbelievable people, from all over the world and created memories. I was comfortable and that was starting to become an issue.
Couple of days prior, i had a thought which i started to explore. The thought…pack it all in and leave the country for 2, maybe 3 months! I delved straight into this thought and stayed there for about 3 hours. It just felt right. I started doing a little more research on Tuesday…when i say research, i mean a few internet searches. Surely that’s classed as research right and doing my homework?