It happens right, or it has happened? Or maybe you’re not even aware of it! How did this make you feel? I recall many times growing up I would say these things or more to myself, the feeling of dread, the lack of self-esteem, the lack of confidence. Some of it was due to external factors out of my control, some, just being told things in the community or at school, it all had an impact, it all affected the self-talk dialogue. Ultimately, I was the loser here but looking back, maybe also others around me. They didn’t get the best of me; they didn’t get the opportunity to see what I was capable of at that time, the reason being, the negative inner self-talk.
Are you sure? What if it doesn’t work out? Have you thought about it? I don’t think you should? What about money? What about your job? Your [insert age]! Don’t do it! I’s too far! What about me / us [insert a loved one’s name] Have you heard any of this before? Highly likely when…
Many of us have been there. We enter into a new relationship and it’s fucking awesome, the standard phrase, ‘Honey-moon period’. It’s incredible right? You think it will last forever, naturally, you feel happy, the pleasure is there, and some people then drop their guard, stop doing the things they used to and before you know it, you’re in a rut. One of the 2 or sometimes both, change and get comfortable. It’s happened to me on both sides, I’ve got comfortable or the other half has – mainly the other half 😉, I’m a hopeless romantic. When we are not aware of this, it’s not much of an issue but deep down, we’re just settling, or are we? We’re all different so I’m being open here and very general.
I’m in a bubble. Not wanting to leave. A bubble full of love, joy, friendship, certainty, uncertainty, goodbyes, hello’s, growth and confusion. Having spent around 18 days in Koh Tao, I was reluctant to leave. I had the most incredible time there, met some unbelievable people, from all over the world and created memories. I was comfortable and that was starting to become an issue.
I was in a phase…” I’ve been here before, I got this!” That’s what I kept saying to myself along with, this will pass! Days went by followed by weeks. What on earth was going on! I couldn’t snap out of it. I hadn’t changed my routine, I was still going to the gym, still eating well…but, I didn’t want to see anyone else. I didn’t want to talk to people. I knew I had to do something to deal with this. I felt I was spiraling out of control, this had to stop.