Happiness or pleasure
For a while I was mistaking pleasure for happiness. The job. The salary. The women. The car. The Status is commanded. The instant gratification that I’d receive from all of these but never really getting that deep feeling of happiness. Always looking for the next quick fix of pleasure. Fortunately, this didn’t take over my life, I still had some form of awareness that this is not really deep happiness.
Physical form is a temporary feeling. Love and memories are within you always.
Sometimes I’ll look at an old photo of my mum and just stare at it. I have no idea why. My thoughts go blank. My mind feels like it’s hit the pause button. My breathing becomes deeper. After 5-6 seconds I’ll look away, almost forcefully or scroll to the next in the gallery. I then…
BeyondSIX
It was around 1996 when I realised I wanted to be different. I realised at the age of 10 that I had already seen too much pain. I had witnessed too much hurt. Abuse, whether it was self inflicted or inflicted to my loved ones by others, was a norm. Stability was inconsistent. The hardest…
Memories don’t fade
Do they really die?Are they still in your heart? Well, feelings for loved ones who have passed away don’t really fade away. The loved one may not be with you in person and the physical form of the person is in fact no longer with you but you still class them as dead. In a…
Game changer
I started journaling in 2014. 8 months after my elder brother passed away. I had gone through a massive downer. It was the darkest period of my life. I had lost myself. I lost all meaning to life. Did I want to be here…no! But even in my darkest moment, there was this voice within…