What the f*** just happened
I’ll get straight to the point. Wednesday 16th March 2022, i decided to hand my notice into my landlord for my apartment AND resigned from my job!! Take a moment to let that sink in.
Couple of days prior, i had a thought which i started to explore. The thought…pack it all in and leave the country for 2, maybe 3 months! I delved straight into this thought and stayed there for about 3 hours. It just felt right. I started doing a little more research on Tuesday…when i say research, i mean a few internet searches. Surely that’s classed as research right and doing my homework? Anyway, I’m fully clued up by Wednesday and it’s a matter of time before i remove the pin from my grenade. A few things happened in the morning at work which gave me the fuck it feeling! I did – i thought fuck this! Notice handed in – resignation emailed to the business! I was free, well, it felt like that. It could either be the biggest mistake i make or the greatest decision i ever make
“Freedom is not worth having if it does not include the freedom to make mistakes.”
― Mahatma Gandhi
At this point, all i knew was, i wanted to get away and possibly Thailand or Bali; simply because of the cost of living out there and the ability to live comfortably and if wanted, in luxury. I got home in the evening, did more “research” and there i was, booking a flight to Bangkok and heading out on April 19th 2022.
So, here i am now, with Covid mind you, overwhelmed thinking i need to sort my admin out and have 4 weeks to square my belongings away and get them into storage before i go and discover Thailand but more importantly, get back into my head and figure things out and my next steps. It’s absolutely scary, overwhelming, incredible, and exciting. The emotions are running wild currently- slightly surreal.
I’ve lived the majority of my life in uncertainty and i guess i thrive on it. Most of the uncertainty was out of my power of control. I was left to deal with things and find a way. This time round, I’m heading straight into uncertainty and going in head first. What’s the worst that could happen – I’ll figure it out right? If not, I’ll come back and jump onto your couch 😉
The point of this email / blog; it’s easy to think what could go wrong with a decision made. I was getting into that way of thinking over the last year. Flip that shit – what good things could come out of making a decision – that’s were the diamonds are.
Now, I’m not saying quit your job or leave your home and become homeless, but the smaller decisions you’re NOT making in life. The decisions that “could” go wrong. Lets face it, all decisions could go wrong but again, flip that – they could work out beautifully. Whatever the next decision you’re considering, mindfully ask yourself, what positive GOOD could come out of this. How will this make me feel.
Let me know how you get on.
As always, thanks for reading 🙂 My travels will be captured on another open Instagram page – feel free to give it a follow https://www.instagram.com/tyns365/
The only joy in the world is to begin
Enough love as always